I am Still Here

I’ve been doing the school run the last couple of days, last week the traffic was horrible. Even the back routes were stuffed and it just felt like though we were inching in traffic, we weren’t quite moving. What used to be a 15 minute commute became a 45 minute commute.

Today as we were headed to school and seated in traffic. Ms Ky asked me an interesting question, ‘Mama, if Adam and Eve hadn’t eaten the fruit, there would be no traffic, right?’ I have blamed Adam and Eve for many things but not yet for traffic. One of the biggest qualms I have with them is that if they hadn’t eaten the fruit there would be no sickness. Sickness can be like traffic in this journey of life.

Healing is a heavy subject. We can pray and fast all we like but it remains God’s prerogative on who He chooses to live in the same situation, who He chooses to be fully healed and who He chooses to die.

We take the answer we get, in the timing that it comes, and even if He doesn’t answer as we’d hoped we have to believe that He is still a good Father.

I have been quite sick this year. I have spent a few weeks each month in hospital while praying for healing. I am now more ready to talk about the journey, as it has been different from my earlier intense battle with Endometriosis. I recently also found out that one of the adhesions I initially had had grown back again after surgical removal. This has weighed heavily on my heart as I thought that healing is linear, but it is not.

I am still here, hopeful in Christ. Not here because He heals, but because He is.

Healing may come, or I may have to live while taking the pills or find rest at the feet of Jesus. Either way He remains God.

If you would like to support my healing journey, please see the details below. I have a bill in hospital and monthly and bimonthly hospital visits while taking some pretty expensive medication.

I don’t know what next, but I’m still here.